Letter to a Monster

you think really took the cake last night i mean wow you said the worst thing ANYONE could ever say to me "why would i wanna fuck you i don't know where you've been" wow you must have me confused with one of your lil 3 month relationships. if i'm not worthy of you maybe crackhead carol is who was problely too high and drunk in bars to know wether she was getting fucked or not and you have no idea how many bj's she gave to cops to get out of a dui or maybe maria who kept things from you. or maybe hottie seham who had to make sure at least 50 guy kept their eyes on her when you 2 went out the point is u choose fucked up people and i'm not fucked up i couldn't find the right words to say but i found some song lyrics that say it i hope you take the time to read i worked hard on it but i know you wont oh and by the way if anyone is apitaphic in this mess we have its u i'm not the one who see's you crying and goes and sets up a project or continues yelling or when i hurt my self calling me a "stupid lil fucking cunt" u never once asked how my ankle was or how i'm feeling if there's disinterest here it's you

"I try to make you see my side
Always trying to stay in line
But you're eyes see right through
That's all they do
i'm getting tired of this shit
I've got no room when it's like this
what you want of me
just deal with it"

"I don't believe I'll be alright
I don't believe I'll be OK
I don't believe how you've thrown me away
I do believe you didn't try
I do blame you for every lie
When I look in your eyes, I don't see mine"

" It's kinda like a comedy
Well first you kiss me
Then you say we're through
I say you got some issuses (yeah, you do)
Some things you gotta work through (really do)
It's sorta like a talk show, no wait a freak show
When the freak is you"

"My heart is broken
I'm lying here
My thoughts are choking on you my dear
On you my dear"


"I was naive
Your love was like candy
Artificially sweet
I was deceived by the wrapping
Got caught in your web
And I learned how to bleed
I was prey in your bed
And devoured completely"

"somewhere we went wrong our love is like a song but you wont' sing along"

"First you wanna be free Now you say you need me
Giving mixed signals and signs
It's so hard to let you in
Thinking you might slam the brakes again"

"Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees,
These foolish games are tearing me apart,
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart."

"You took my heartbeat from me
This is the saddest story
Was it I loved you poorly?
You took my heartbeat from me
Should have just stabbed it for me
From ashes to dust, I just wanna get along with you"

"I miss you, you hurt me, you left with a smile
Mistaken, your sadness was hiding inside
Now all that's left are the pieces to find
The mystery you kept, the soul behind a guise
Why did you go?
All these questions run through my mind
I wish I couldn't feel at all
Let me be numb, I'm starting to fall"

"Do you feel the distance
Like i feel resistance
If i pull any farther away
Would you even come after me
But the one thing im fearing
Is im disappearing
How can i keep believing
If you wont prove me wrong"

"Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’ll be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool there’s nothin I can do
I’m such a fool for you
I can’t take it what am I waiting for
My heart still breakin I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinkin of you
It’s true I’m stuck on you "

"It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return"